I think I'm ageist... Thats what they used to say when i was in school.

I'm on holidays now... as in, uni holidays. I can't believe a whole semesters all ready over! It went by so fast... But thats life isn't it? I hate it how time just goes so fast. It was like only yesterday that I was 10 and going to Southside CC where my Pop used to preach. Or when I was 12 and starting up the youth band at Southern River... Or when I was 16 and singing at Cityview for the first time, its first Sunday meeting. Now I'm 18, attending uni, about to go to the Eastern States without my parents, driving wherever I want to go, making a lot of my own choices and decisions. Sometimes I get scared. Or sad... both mixed together. Just how I'm feeling right now! Those feelings might have been encouraged by the movie I just watched though... The Notebook. Such a good movie aye... Gotta love the romances. But its just startling to see how their life went by so quickly. They were a young couple once... but are now old and wrinkly.
     You know what else? I've been thinking about buying a house! Not that I will... Not for a long long time! Its just that I'm starting to think of the future... You know, where I wanna end up, how I'm gonna make a living, and how I'm going to leave my mark on this world. But man, have you seen the prices of houses and land lately?? I really love the Cannington and Vic Park area, but their creeping up in prices way too quickly! Kenwick or Beckingham sound fairly good to me... Not too expensive you know? I think after these holidays I wanna start saving. Not for anything in particular... Just because I know I can save now, I've proven it... after saving up quite a bit for my holiday.
     Come on guys, it isn't just me thinking this way... huh? I'm sure it isn't just my parents that say "You gotta grow up Alyce!" or "Alyce, grow up! Make your own decisions." So yes, growing up. I don't wanna. Really, seriously, I don't! I want to be this age for quite awhile. My parents are really supportive and i've got good friends, an all right job and a great uni life... Why would I wanna change it? Don't you hate it when things change? What if they change for the worse? Thats why I want it to stay the same. But of course I'm going to grow up so... maybe I should quit whining about it.
     One things for sure, I want to pick my game up. I do want to become more independent as well. Grow up to be a good strong woman in Christ. By George, I need to. But also, I'm still young! I should lap it all up while I still can! Of course, whoever knows me, knows that I will and am. Heehee... I know how to have fun. Why be shy? I hope this post doesn't sound like babbling nonsense. Probably does! Oh well... its late. And I haven't posted in awhile. I guess this one makes up for it. Ciao fellas...