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Last night I sat at the table with my family, Luke and Joy, talking about the end times. I know I've written on this topic before, but its just so much more clear to me now. Just look at the world. Why can't anyone see it? All those torched cars in France, don't they call Paris the city of love? Doesn't seem like it now, does it? And what about those raids in the Eastern States where they've found many destructive instruments hidden in peoples houses. Many have been imprisoned, some including Australian citizens. Terrorists in Australia... Its possible, I can't help think that we're next. The tornado that ripped through a city in America the other day, totally demolishing everything in its path. And how about that Hurricane Katrina not too long ago? What about 911? Can't forget about that earthquake that happened in Pakistan a few months ago, thousands upon thousands are dead. There was also those bombs that exploded in London. And what about that horrendous tidal wave that ripped through all those asian countries just after Christmas?
     Last night I just sat there silently, which is unusual for me. I felt myself getting angry and frightened at the same time. I like to think that I'm safe in my little world, which is surrounded by God, friends, family, shopping, fashion and fun activities. But really, I'm not. I'm not safe. Oh yeah, of course my life is in God's hands, I can trust him to protect me. But in this world, you just don't know whats gonna happen next. Seriously, do you guys think so too? The end times? Far out, I see it. That anger that I felt last night just made my blood simmer. How can people be so blind? So STUPID. Instead of turning to God, they BLAME him for all thats happening. When its ALL OUR FAULT. Its our fault that global warming is happening, look at what we do, destroying the planet, letting off gases into the atmosphere. All those bombs that go off under the surface of the ocean, to test if they work. No wonder that earthquake happened in Pakistan and the tidal wave in the Asian regions.
     Yeah I like having a good time, I like picking out dresses to wear to a graduation or a nice outfit to a special occasion. Or going to the cinemas and complaining that I wasted my money on some dodgy movie. But theres so much more to worry about. I can't help thinking that in the near future I won't be worrying what to wear, but how to survive. Okay, okay, I know I'm thinking deep. I know it might not get that bad, but still, you gotta think about it. I was talking to someone the other day, I can't remember who. Maybe it was Rima? I don't know, but they said that I am always talking about the future, what life would be like in a few years. What I want to be when I 'grow up', where they will be, what I will do, how I would think... Yeah, you could say that I do think that way. I'm not one of those people that live on day at a time. I like to prepare. Think about it and know my goals and dreams. I guess now its those days where you really have to start thinking about that stuff anyway. Because before you know it, you'll be stuck. I know God has a plan for my life, and I am eternally greatful that he loves me, because I know I don't deserve it. I also have to plan my life, with God included. No, not just 'God included'. Lets reword that, GOD has to plan my life. So, that means if I don't get into uni, God has a plan and wants me to go down a different road. Like go to tafe instead!
     You know, we always hear about the blessings God has for our lives, the promises he has, how to walk the road of life with God, etc. You always hear pators preaching that... But we don't hear enough about the end times, about the hope God has for us in the world that has no hope. He is our hope, and I will hold onto that hope. Cause I know and God knows that there is nothing else for me to hold onto but him. Hes my rock, my corner stone. Amen to that sister. Yes I know, I still love having a good time, worrying over silly things like clothes and fashion and whether a cute guy like me or not. I can still have all that, but I also need to keep an eye on my road ahead. Especially now.